I have lost several friends, I have lost my job, I have been invited not to live at my residence after this year, I have given up hope, I have lost my will to go on, I have lost so many other things... just in 2 weeks... I am going to go home... back to Wray the place I detest so much and I am going to get help... Medical help... I am far to depressed to be 24 I shouldn't hold my life at equal value to the dirt that we walk on... honestly the only times I am EVER happy are when I am in a relationship and I can't live like that... I just can't live like that.... It may be weeks, months, years, a decade til I find the woman I'm supposed to end up with... So... yeah I can't keep holding on to that ideal... I need to get some fucking prozak or something.