Hello. No. No posts for today... Going to post later. 

I watched the last mlp series last night and I'm just in such a state as if I had lost something. And now I'm in a sense of "depression". And I decided to write my history how I became a brony while the depression still hurts. 

Disclaimer: This was written for an hour or even two and i just did that because i want to make myself feel better. If this post got someone into depression i'm really sorry.

Welp. Let's begin.

History

2010-2013

Let's start a little from afar. At that time I was on a trip, at that time and I studied and lived in Canada. I did not know the word depression at all. It was the year 2010. Years passed and already in 2012 I certainly heard that there was such a series and that it was awesome, strange, girlish, there were different opinions, but it didn’t really bother me at all.

After 3 years, when I was already formed the circle of people with whom I actively talk on Facebook and all the time planning all kinds of sleep overs, meetings, etc. and it was wonderful...

And the time came when it was necessary to leave back. To Moscow. I did not want to do this and leave what I created around myself. I was respected and loved there. But, unfortunately, I did not have such an opportunity. I had the last meeting with my best friend before the departure, it was July 3, 2013 I was 13 years old ... I still remember how we exchanged a few words when it was necessary to leave for the airport and he told me: See ya then! And after that I just stood rooted to the spot for about 20 seconds watching him off until he disappeared around the corner in the end of a street. We haven’t seen each other (in live) since then.
After I flew away I felt like I had lost something along the way. And when I arrived at the place, I let out a strong tear of nostalgia for this place where I liked to spend my time and knowing that's going to be harder to met someone that i can trust.

Of course, parents and relatives supported me, but not for long. A month later, I began to miss these times. I was watching . A month later, I went in once to my brother and the door was closed. And I secretly quietly opened his door and looked at what he was doing there. He looked at the cartoons. At first I didn’t understand, I didn’t get it, and I just closed the door.

And as you know, I wondered why he was watching them. And I got on the Internet with this question (i find out what's internet just i was 12 so it was a thing for me). And it turned out that this is My Little Pony "what a stupid name" i said. And then I saw a whole marathon of 9 episodes 4 hours on YouTube. And I said: Meh... a couple of episodes will not hurt to see i don't have anything to do today anyway".

And you probably understood from that moment I fell into the trap like all of us.
And I was impressed with this series. I didn’t know that I could meet something so addictive. The design, development of characters even a silly Looney-Toon style jokes it was perfect.

I was closet brony for some time but did not know about it. Then i found SFM animations from Ed + ,when found more animations, art, music, dubbing, etc. etc. etc. you know the drill. Then later in minecraft I met a group of people of the same age and we began to talk about everything. And i think in that moment i became a brony. Somewhere in Sep/2013. Later when i team up with my brother that was watching mlp since Nov/2012.

The end of 2013 and 2014 was very depresfull times for me. The first year in new school. The death of grandpa that i didn't saw for 3 years. And grandma got in the hospital. And it was hard. And partly this show was supporting me and i very thankfull for that.

The 2015 was perfect i passed the exams ,grandma got out of a hospital and live things was going well and also there was a bad news. The people that talked with started to leave one by one from skype and in the end of a year i lost them all. And there was just abandoned accounts. I don't blame them time flies they all grew up and they had no interest in MLP at all and just left the fandom. And in Nov/2015 i got so bored that i got into in sfm and start doing things. And this's how i got in SFM.

The 2016... Welp. This was partly a good year and partly not. I graduated from 10th grade everything was really fine and this was another business trip. It was a Central Asia (Kazakhstan). I had nothing to loose because i don't had any best friends. Just partners, connections and colleagues. And when i was was waiting for the plane i found out there was a SourceBronyCommunity (Russian Group in VK) that had a lot of tallented artists and i didn't know by then that my Lyra Jackson piece would be the last... Today is partly abandoned.

Irl it was not better either. I had the worst experience of all in school. I was learning the last year in a Paid School. I was like not fitting in (in a good way). This students all imagined that they're going to learn in Moscow and Saint-Petersburg. And mostly i can call them HypeBeasts. There was just a few "normal" people i was talking with there. I just imagined to get out of there lmao. And again the MLP also supported me at that time.