TheTarafan

Ok. So...he doesn't love me, but he told me he did. Problem is...I do love him. Very much so. I guess I'm just not meant to be happy... I guess I'm not one of those people that you want to make happy or feel special. I'm just kind of "meh." Not very talented, not very pretty or sympathetic. I don't have the ability to make a conversation interesting. I'm not funny. Just ordinary. And that hurts to know. Please don't tell me that I need to "cheer up". That would make it worse. Compassion is nice, but trying to tell me what I need to do makes me feel like crap.

I'm happy. Really, I am. Pleased with my life and progress... With the love of my life.. I don't think I've been this far away from darkness in a long, long time :) And if you are dealing with somber times, I just want to say...it gets better. I know it sounds ciché, but it is true... There is a French saying that goes "Après la pluie, le beau temps.", which means "After the rain comes sunny weather" ;) Just wanted to get this out to anyone who needs it, since I know there are people that struggle with their life... I am open to anyone in need of talking ^^

As 2012 comes to an end, I want to reflect on this past year and to take the time to think about all the things I'm grateful for, and about all the things to come. First, 2012 was a pretty good year for me. It had its ups and downs, like all things, but I think it was a good year. Of course, there were times when I felt sad, or bad, or depressed, but there were also times of joy, times of love... I'm thankful for my friends, who kept me from harming myself and were always there for me. I'm thankful for Benjamin, who was my boyfriend, and I'm sorry I hurt him. I'm thankful for my family, my parents, my brothers, my aunts, uncle and cousins,...