SweetSandStar

Believe it or not, I'm actually an adult user.

Who's spent way too much time on this profile.

Hello, welcome to my page!

  This is my secret abode, where I anonymously express the hidden depths of myself I wouldn't dream of revealing to anyone who knows me in person-- for I'm almost positive I'd die of humiliation.

  I'm a slightly misanthropic person, yet if my art is evidence of anything, it's that I'm not. so

  I like to procrastinate, busy myself with additional unnecessary projects, and take a 'respite from the fray' by making pictures (and video edits) of Hollywood stars.

  Read my journal entries to witness me shunning modern-day cyberculture and expressing the depth of my (many) inner obsessions and personal et cetera, specifically pertaining to Hollywood stars.  

  My art and my interests are perhaps my least favourite part of myself. However, it helps me tremendously in dealing with the inner turmoil I endure on a daily basis. Hopefully, someday, I will find the time and the resources to diversify the medium and focus of my art.

  I can almost never make up my mind. About anything. All I know is that I am destined for something greater than myself... I'll let you know once I figure it out.

  I know what you're probably thinking. Or maybe you're not. But why would a Brit have so much interest in Hollywood? Well, I'm American. I probably act like it, too. I'm not from the UK. I just put that there. Maybe it's gotten you to read this. Maybe it hasn't. But now you can think what you like about the legitimacy of the rest of my bio. Or maybe I'm messing with you right now? 😜

I know, it wasn't funny.

You can also find me on : wattpad and reddit.

       I am a Capricorn-Sagittarius Cusp, INTJ-T 5w4, Water Horse (Chinese Zodiac), and one of older Gen Z's lonely, isolated members who is embarrassed to be bound to them in any sort of fashion, even if it is merely by something as shallow and unimportant as a generational term. I actually debated whether I should bother sharing these, because I don't think it's very fair to put yourself in a position for people to automatically decide to either like or dislike you solely due to the descriptive elements associated with a label-- especially with no true type of interaction between them and myself.

        I'm 5'0 and I weigh about 95lbs. I have an extremely child-like, high pitched voice that has previously been compared to that of an anime character. I also have dirty blonde hair I refuse to cut, and blue eyes. I have hirsute, dark eyebrows that I shape myself because if I don't, they look like raccoon tails. I have even darker eyelashes that are so long, I can't comfortably wear sunglasses. I also have perfectly straight teeth following a long, unfortunate, character-crumbling 10+ years of being tormented with nicknames like 'bucktooth girl' and 'sharp tooth.' I'm way less friendly and carefree than I used to be, and to be frank, I'm quite angry that I have become a product of my environment like so, and that the people around me have managed to take it up with themselves to beat that wholehearted, compassionate, sanguine nature out of me and replace it with this jaded, sardonic, pessimistic version of myself- although I'm sure it has done my artistic side worlds of good. so yeah  

         My favourite humans include (but are not limited to) :  River Phoenix, Ralph Macchio, Ryan Reynolds, Tyler Baltierra, Leonardo DiCaprio, Bill Skarsgård, Sebastian Stan, and Anton Zaslavski. They will never know me, but they will also never hurt me. Plus, according to horoscopes, I just so happen to be astrologically compatible with each of them. As if that actually means anything at all on my end.

          My favourite fandom characters include (but are not limited to) :  Peter Parker, Wade Wilson, Matt Murdock, Vision (MCU), Jack Dawson (Titanic), Gilbert Blythe (AnnE), Cory Matthews (BMW), Daniel LaRusso (TKK & Cobra Kai), Tate Langdon (AHS), Kristoff (Frozen), Jim Hawkins (Treasure Planet), Alvin Seville (the Chipmunks), Kopa (TLK), Angel (Lady & the Tramp), Leafpool, Squirrelflight, Crowfeather, Tigerheart, Bramblestar, Bluestar, Oakheart, Fallen Leaves, Half Moon, Mapleshade (Warriors), Nick Wilde (Zootopia), and Fix-It Felix, Jr (WIR).

          My OC's are :  Fayette Farley, Halle Hart, Stella Dawson, Freia, Butterbelle, Sunniva, Fenella, Mint, Doeleaf, Poolsplash, and Eggfeather.

          My favourite snacks are peanut butter banana sandwiches, Adjaruli Khachapuri, quesadillas, crêpes and banana milk, as well as every guy I edit basically. :3

Lol, kidding... Or am I?  

          My favourite colours are periwinkle, baby blue, pastel pink, and peach.

          My favourite flowers are the mountain laurel and yoshino cherry blossoms.

          I am predominantly Sicilian and English, but after taking a DNA test, I discovered I'm also part Greek, Albanian, French, Scottish and German! ^-^

          I speak both English and French. I am also currently studying German, Georgian, Romanian, and the three Scandinavian languages (Swedish, Norwegian & Danish) with emphasis on Norwegian. Because why not? xD

          I'm an avid equestrian who predominantly competes in hunter, cross country and show jumping classes. My favourite horse breeds are the Appaloosa, Connemara, Morgan, Haflinger, Welara, and the German Riding Pony.

          I'm also a cross country runner, figure skater, musician, actress, filmmaker, photographer, and a journalist for The Teen Magazine outside of my time at university. 

          I am very intrigued by paranormal activity, creepypastas and the general unknown.

 I'm a perfectionist who has a very all-or-nothing mindset, unfortunately. I take my art very seriously, to the extent where I won't post it at all unless it is either perfect in my mind, or I am absolutely sick of trying to make it look perfect. Of course, this standard is constantly changing. Not every portrait is destined to be a masterpiece, and if there's really no saving it, sometimes I'd prefer to just post it and forget it's there. You can probably guess which pieces those are xD

 My 'area of centripetal focus,' per se, is primarily in photo manipulation and graphic design. The subjects and presentation of my art is, admittedly, pretty embarrassing. It also doesn't represent me very well, as I tend to have a more pessimistic and emotionally closed-off viewpoint on life than my art typically lets on. However, that doesn't mean it didn't take a lot of time and effort- or that I can't like bright colours and/or kawaii things. Unfortunately, I have gotten a lot of dismissive responses regarding myself and my art in the past, and I would like to eliminate that right off the bat if possible. I'd hate to come off as an egotistical human in saying so, but I am just as much an artist as anyone else on this platform. We are all here with the intent of expressing ourselves in the ways we each individually know best. Do not attempt to prevent me from doing it my way, and I will not stand in the middle of yours.

 I'm not a pretentious person. I'm not some 'cute, quirky girl' wannabe. I also don't waste time putting on the facade of someone who is exceptionally 'wounded, deep, dark,' or 'edgy', and therefore they're supposedly better than everyone else. I find these unnecessary attempts at enforcing an idea of public superiority, especially when most of us just hate ourselves 90% of the time, to be very obnoxious and degrading as opposed to uplifting, as they're typically intended to be deep down. I'll be kind to you if you're kind to me; there are no two ways to cut it.

 I may look like a silly fan girl or 'stan', but I truly hate those words, especially when I am immediately dubbed beneath them upon first glance. I am besotted with the idea of Hollywood, despite all its flaws - I am a true aficionado - but I am not necessarily obsessed with any single person in particular. So, I can't really say I have ever truly 'stanned' anyone (such a stupid word, it pains me to write it). Celebrities are people just like us, and they deserve their privacy likewise; I know, respect, and do my best to enforce this, which is why I tend to focus on many of the brilliant artists within Hollywood and portraying them in a generally positive light, as well as the projects they pour their hearts and souls into, as opposed to all the drama that is also associated with Hollywood. 

 My creative outlet is slightly different than yours, and that's okay. I have no problem with receiving constructive criticism regarding the artistic composition of my work; however, I will not take kindly any insults that serve as deliberate digs specifically targeted towards the subjects of my work. Obviously, they had no say in any of the portraits that have been created, and hence should not be blamed for how I opted to portray them. Nonetheless, I don't really post art on here anticipating an audience; it's primarily to serve as an artistic portfolio. So I don't mind the lack of attention or gravitation towards my pieces, nor do I make efforts to promote them.

 If I suddenly go inactive on a whim, it means I probably died. (Seriously, guys, I'm not going anywhere.)

Cool, have a great day!