Blame

"He didn't- couldn't blame Joshua for his anger. It was his fault after all. If he'd been better, neither of them would be in this situation."

Just a little what-if situation (Not entirely sure if it'll actually happen in the AU), I was thinking about it and I realized that Joshua would probably blame Xen for a lot of the things that happened in his life. And the worst part is that Xen wouldn't even defend himself because he also believes he's responsible for this happening. He's not, but they don't know that.