I need to draw but I can't find the energy or the drive to. I need to be able to make the New Year speedpaint but I'm finding the drive to do so not there since I know it will be sad for me since this year has just been a shit show for me. I've lost so much this year, the final tragedy being on Christmas Eve of all days. There have been some good things that happened but the bad outweighed the good this year. I just don't know if I have it in me to draw something for the New Year right now... I just don't know...