Paakil

It's a new year and a new start. In two weeks I move to Gothemburg - my favorite city! I'm so happy it's finally happening, I still can't believe I get to leave this place, this Hole, where I grew up.I hope you who read this Journal are okay and that you will have a great start as well.I GIVE YOU KISSES! :smooch:

I had the most awesome night last night! My friend and I borrowed the keys to school and went there in the late afternoon to hang out and paint some paintings, and ordered pizza for dinner. I had a blast! We just kept on going until 10 PM, we wanted to stay all night but couldn't. We decided to do this again on a weekend so that we could be up all night and just... pour ourselves out in color.I made two paintings and I love them, they will appear here some day soon I hope. Yaaaaay *dancing*Have a great day, guys :hug:

... but the more confused. Some days I feel like everything is fine and that maybe the pain of losing is gone, but then another day comes along and proves that wrong. I don't want to be in love any more 'cause it's painful but I don't want to fall out of love - 'cause I'm in love with that person. And I am also so scared for falling out of love that I crap my pants (not really but you get the picture) 'cause if I don't feel it any more I'm not sure what feeling will replace it; probably no feeling at all and to feel nothing, NOTHING, is what I fear the most. I'm kinda stuck but I'll slap out of it some day (you who have seen Cougar Town wi...