Nuenue17

Remember this, Remember that

Remember back when we was bratz

And now we're old and now we're wise and yet we try and disguise what really lies beneath the surface

Yeah this earth is really earthless

When your voice cracked and you choked

It's been days since we ain't spoke

I'm in a daze about that night

Yeah what we did it felt right

The pain that I feel inside

The betrayal behind your lies

The truth, you hate to be told

I hate how all this had to unfold

We're both 28 years old

Uh, we had a blast! Hope every parent put there with kids had a fun, safe night. Tonight went wayyy better than I expected. I became acquaintance with a neighbor. Ran into her in the neighborhood new my daughters school. 😄 I'm loving these expected surprises. Such nice people in the neighborhood and very cool decorations.

The older I'm getting I've faced harsh truths. I should not have friends of the opposite sex especially if they are in a relationship and if they don't believe in keeping things platonic. I have lost very few friends whether if I knew them online or in person due to the fact that their woman thought I wanted their man. That's where they were wrong. Thankfully my geniune guy friends have never ever crossed inappropriate boundaries with me single or not. My friendships are very geniune. I do not like befriended people with opposite values of mine or those that believe in sleeping with every female, male in their path. We're human yes. But it doesn't mean I have an eye for every man I cross paths with. A guy can be attractive and I'll still not want him in that way. If there's no mental connection what's the point of it all? I'm sharing this because the truth hurts. No one was there to tell me you'll lose certain friends because they're in a relationship. I even had an ex childhood friend flirt with me while he was in a relationship and I thought it was inappropriate and his fiance made him unfriend me. Rightfully so. I cannot tell you why some dudes in relationships may seem to think I'll help them cheat on their woman or be the 'side piece' hell no. I actually respect people's relationships. I would never want to come between someone's relationship. That's not within my character. Also I'm going to have to let go of this guy who's a life coach that I befriended because he keeps flirting with Mr and he's in a serious committed relationship. Not once had I ever flirted with him while with someone. But the fact that he'd disrespect his partner and I don't want to entertain it because it makes me look like a bad person. I was very naive and still am. But all of my experiences have given me a rude awakening. I am okay. But it stings to have to make the right choice and cut someone off.

To anyone who cares and the few people I speak with. Sorry if I am late on replying, responding. I will be laying low. My daughter has an upper respiratory virus and I've been having snius issues. It seems every year during seasonal changes we're always getting sick. I need to ensure that our immune systems are stronger and take the proper vitamins that I need. All I want to do is sleep.

I like when guys my age approach me and strikes up a conversation. I had put false beliefs in my head that guys my age wouldn't ever want to approach me or talk to me. But I've learned that is simply not true. I held these false beliefs due to bullying and bad guys playing mind games with my feelings. Being 28 is great. A whole new perspective. I'm connecting with certain people again. It makes me happy. Now it's time for me to look avaliable 😆 because I want to get noticed. A boy is scared to approach someone he likes he beats around the bush. A man gets straight to the point and goes after what he wants. I'm so peculiar about which men I like on an emotional level or even the attraction. My mind has to be stimulated as well, the psychical appearance alone does nothing for me. I wonder what other experiences may come my way. I truly hope they're all geniune and that I am discerning.