i need to be called out for this. i did something seriously bad two days ago and i promised to vamposs that i will make a call out + apology post on it (thought vamposs already called me out on my discord server,not many people from da know about this). so what i did was basically sexualize mansiprie,or myself at some point (implying that mansiprie as an oc is supposed to represent me). and as many of you know,i am a minor. i am a minor sexualizing myself. i didn't really draw the "yknow what" and I just putted censor marks but either way it's still sexualizied. when i was making that shit i was making it as some kind of a fucking joke, which is why the colouring and line art looked so shitty,plus why "owo's" were drawn on some places in the background, but it's still a fucking minor and i don't know what went to my head when i thought it was alright as long as it was made as a joke. getting back to the point i accidentally sent it to vamposs (my intention was to send it to my alt but i somehow messed that up and idk how),and obviously they got uncomfortable and they called me out on my discord server as i mentioned earlier,after we talked for some time though. then the thing got worse when i didn't show up on da or discord yesterday. i was supposed to make this status yesterday but I was too big pussy to actually do that. which made vamposs feel like shit because they thought it was their fault that i didn't show up and they started to blame all of this on themselves. after i saw their and rubys messages on discord i felt so bad about it. i still do. i couldn't stand the fact that i made my friends worried and made them feel bad about themselves. so i said...all of this..

and y'know what? i really am i terrible person. not only did i sexualize myself but i also sent it to vamposs. accidentally or nah,i still sent it. and then i made people worried. i made people who are my friends worried and feel bad about themselves.
i am a shit person and a friend.
no matter how many times i say sorry it wouldn't be enough to fix any of this.
i went to far and it's my fault.
i seriously need to get fucking help and change myself.
because what i did is unacceptable.
and i know that.
as i said in one of those screenshots,i am leaving DeviantArt for at least a month. because i seriously want to change myself and i am willing to do so.
i know i can't just brush off what i did like it was a completly normal human behaviour. and i am ready to try to change myself,and most importantly to teach myself NOT TO MAKE JOKES OUT OF ILLEGAL THINGS LIKE THESE.
this will most likely ruin my deviantart reputation. but y'know what,i don't really care about that anymore and i don't see it as something important. the thing that matters to me the most at the time is to become a better person then i am rn,and to not be such a shit friend.
by the end of the day i will be logging off from deviantart and you won't hear anything from me on here for awhile. i hope that if/when i come back i will be a better person than i am now,so behaviour like this won't repeat again.
just to mention that i will actually delete your comment if you say something like "it's ok" or "you did nothing wrong" because my guy,i indeed did a lot of wrong things past two days and it's very much not okay.