Writing a biography about me is a little bit like trying to explain the unexplained to a child that continuously asks "why?".
It's just too great a task to accomplish and there isn't a good enough answer...
But... in good effort, I offer you this collection of unorganized thoughts without much structure and hope you can kind of come up with your own conclusion that makes sense to you.
To know me is to be crazy, I think. I'm kind of a dark stormy whirlwind with random bursts of intense color. I have an adventurous spirit with hobbled ambition. I'd love to visit A, B, and C--but cant ever get the will to leave A.
I spend an awful lot of time with my head in the clouds thinking about "bigger and better" things that could-have and should-have been.
This mode of thinking is like my own personal nightmare. It leaves me with this sense of unfulfilled-ness that I can't seem to escape. So basically I just see myself as one dysfunction after another. Maybe its not good to have such negative thoughts about yourself... but what can I say? I am who I am, i guess.
I could easily go the rest of my life without ever taking my headphones off. I spend HOURS everyday listening to spotify and I absolutely love finding new music.
I can't say I like anything specific--because just as the above blurb mentioned--im always looking for the next thing--the next best song or genre.
I like death-metal, instrumental, EDM, gangster rap, country... you name it. My absolute favorite thing to do... is just drive. Drive and listen to my jams.
I often leave work and just joy-drive while headbanging to korn or convincing myself to cry while listening to some sad themed instrumental. My emotions are easily influenced by the sounds that I hear. It can create some fantastically
chaotic ups and downs.
I feel like I look at life in a different way than most people do. I guess MOST people prolly think that way about themselves. (so just let me have this) It's hard to explain and most people dont understand it when I try to talk it out.
but it's a very lonely feeling. Like I'm the only person looking out the window and appreciating what the world COULD and SHOULD have been. I look at things like parking lots and wonder what used to be there and why was this ugly hunk
of asphalt necessary. I drive to work at night and make sure to look at the moon. Every time. Simply because it's gorgeous. Its light is soft and gentle... but the darkness around it is smothering. I can relate to the moon, I think.
I'm a big old fat pasty white luminous ball of wonder that's surrounded by emo-darkness. It must be lonely to be the moon....even with all the stars.
(Lol... look at me going off on a tangent. I'm so focused... )
I am an artsy-fartsy soul. (hah fart) And apparently, I'm a silly idiot too. I like to start projects and NEVER finish them lol. I find the most inner peace when I'm working on something artsy. This goes hand in hand with my obsession
over music. I like to que up a spotify playlist and draw for hours. It's an old hobby that I recently picked back up. But again... it's a lonely hobby. Something I do alone, that dosent feel appreciated by anyone but me.
That's prolly not the case--but the feeling is always there. lol. I hate me...
I love aliens and Bigfoot tho... In fact, I love most fictitious things. Cryptids, castles, enchanted forests, pirates. (omg im literally the sad pathetic girl in the storybooks that want to be saved... FML.) lol whatever I guess.
Clearly I'm a social butterfly that's not afraid to say the things I want to say even if I make myself look stupid. I'm a social butterfly that's trapped in a socially-awkward exoskeleton--hooray me!
If you haven't caught on by now, Sadie is a giant loser-goober. Or maybe she simply suffers from bi-polar/adhd disorder lol.
Thanks for adding CHRONOMANCER Wallpaper as a Favourite ❤️
Very nice gallery.
Hey, Can you do Hogatha The Beauty from The Smurfs episode "The Magic Earrings"?
https://smurfs.fandom.com/wiki/The_Magic_Earrings?file=Hogatha_The_Beauty.jpg
I just learned how to give our Llama badges.. You deserve it. Cheers
thank you for the llama and the favorites!!Much appreciated!