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i entertain fantasy. i think, as i sit, staring off into space. there's never going to be a good conclusion to this, i know that. why do i keep thinking like this way? i don't know. i know you said it was okay but i don't think i am.and it doesn't make any sense. i don't have anything, or, barely anything to do with it. why does everything make me feel so hopeless. maybe it's fear? am i afraid i could become that? the similarities and the, somehow, pity of the words.i am a sucker for words. i am clever with them. so are they. i said their words are like poison. then it hits me. "you are poison."and i don't know how to feel. you say i'm a g...

    you think of yourself like a machine. not, necessarily your body's functions - rather, your head.    it fits a lot of your predisposed issues, how you treat your thinking and feelings. you really seem to have clear disdain for yourself. but how do you disagree with yourself? you can't. because some parts of the machine thinking seems too fitting to be of ill logic.    thus, the messages. the circuitry and muttering. you are sure - and are probably correct that if you really weren't a human being, you'd have some horribly wired circuitry. the kind that sparks, eventually setting itself aflame.    you are convinced of your eventual spont...

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