Freespirit26

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Its over by Freespirit26, literature

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Its over

Ive had many friends. And I have lost many friends.But I have learned from it. What is important and Who is important.I have what I need. I have who I need.Its always been sad for me to lose things. To lose people.But each loss has made me stronger. Each loss has been a secret gift.The gifts left open spaces for good things to fill. For good people to fill.I have learned to be who I am at a whole new level. I have realized that I change always but never.Understanding that who I am is good enough. Just because it is real and it is me.Experiences with friends where I have cried. Where I have laughed and learned.Without really knowing when, I...

Without You by Freespirit26, literature

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Without You

I see the future right in front of me Clouded by a frozen reality Coming from the past it lies Under footed walls that rise You learned to late that you were wrong Figured out everyone was to far gone The past became the wonderful memories That you lie awake and dream aboutI can’t catch my breath I feel like I’m falling short And everything you see is something that I can’t believe I’ve turned into And you’ve left me in my own typical broken state Yet you started off by saving me I can’t catch my breath Because every time I breathe I’m breathing without youI see the past flowing through my fingers Silently floating past me, but nothing lin...

My Lovely Empty Space by Freespirit26, literature

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My Lovely Empty Space

They all say that I’m being crazy, Saying your not worth it, But if I didn’t think you were, I wouldn’t love you like this, I wouldn’t hurt like this, They say its time to move on, You never treated me like you should, But I was to stubborn to admit it, I’ve been trying to stay busy, Trying to keep my mind off the good times, Was it worth this? All those memories are just reminders, Of what I had and what I lost,Thank you for the heartache, Thank you for the pain, Thank you for the reality check, Showing me I cant be loved, Showing me who I really am, So, Thank you for being my one and only lovely empty space.Their staring at me with those...

Dreamed Reality by Freespirit26, literature

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Dreamed Reality

Ive gotta admit that I'm unhealthy, The smile on my face grows dim, For once, Did you see it? It only lasted a moment, One moment of truth. Covered by a smile I hide.Its so bitter sweet to see your smile, Your so oblivious to the way i feel, Its so easy for me to keep it in for awhile, I'll just deny that what I do is real, Forget it, I'll get over it, Soon enough.You can't see it because I refuse to be healthy, Refuse to let it out, to show it, For once, But its there, When the moon hits my face you see it, When you touch my skin you feel it, I turn around to say the usual, "Im ok" "Everythings fine" It's not fake Its just my own dreamed...

Not Be Me by Freespirit26, literature

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Not Be Me

I don’t wanna talk about it I don’t wanna hear about it I wont even care about it Because all I wanna do is not be meAll these feelings, emotions, Love and Hate I don’t wanna think about it Its driving me crazy inside Let me run away Because all I wanna do is not be meIt all goes wrong even when its all planned out Side swiped comments that cut you To tired to care, To much shit to bare, I’ll take your pain to go along with mine I wont be able to tell because Im already dead.I don’t wanna talk about it I don’t wanna hear about it I wont even care about it Because all I wanna do is not be me

Break Me by Freespirit26, literature

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Break Me

I want to fall to pieces with no hands to catch me, Jump out into something crazy with no safety, Try everything harmful that has ever scared me, Break something, get stabbed, get screamed at, Just let me fall in love and then take it away, I just want you to break my heart, Throw every emotion back in my face, You were using me from the start, So many times I was to hard to talk to, I was never one to be understanding, Always the one girl who was extra demanding, To many questions, so you were driven away, You cheated and are leaving me for her, Tell me that you hate me and never cared, Please break my heart, so then I won’t be scared.

Still Here by Freespirit26, literature

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Still Here

I think theres something missing I dont want to get to close So many things that I should say to you Try to tell you what I want you to know I can't figure it out Why I feel like this Im hurting myself because I care to much Yes, I care to muchSo you left here The place that brought you joy You went with someone else Its hurting because I care to much Im still waiting Waiting here for you Yes, Im still hereI think theres something wrong I dont want to be this way So many things that I should let you feel Try to make you see it from my view I can't get any anwsers Why the questions appear Im hurting myself becasue I care to much Yes, I care...

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I am by Freespirit26, literature

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I am

Im every girls dream Every womens hopes Im the clouds with pouring rain Im a mountains wonderous slopesIm that hand that you can hold, Im the smile to brighten your day Im that person that never causes pain Ill be there to tell you, "your ok"Im that rope to pull you through Im the gust of wind you need Im those words that make you laugh Im a raging boastful steed.Im that gut feeling that you get Im that light to guide your way Im that helper that can rescue Im the one that can save todayIm the girl you cant always see Natures mystery you seem to miss The twinkling stars that hide away Im ignorance and blissIm hope and wonder Im sunshine af...

Bob by Freespirit26, literature

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Bob

Its silly what im doing here Letting you affect me, dear, My sad lonely love letter Floating like a feather Sealed with a kiss Ignorance and Bliss Im just wasting my time In this unhealthy bind Hurrying towards a door Quickly hitting the floor Son of a bitch be locked Unloaded gun thats cocked Look through a crack Fall flat on my back Son of a bitch i just got hit By a stranger with a cigarette lit Im trying to turn the nob My strangers name is bob Rushing the nob to turn My hands begun to burn Son of a bitch burnt me Reaching for the key Hanging where it should be Let me in already My head feels so undsteady Son of a bitch punched me Why ...

Depths so shallow by Freespirit26, literature

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Depths so shallow

Your depth is cold, its shallow and lonely, its sick and twisted in your own mind. Its not strong or peaceful but filled with wishes, wishes you never even want to come true. You fill your life with odd dementions of fake acusations, and hurtful thoughts u openly desire. Hurtful places you hide, behind noise and ruthlessness, for the pain of emotions spread like fire...buring true....buring deep. Hope has been cast aside because hope was never hoped. Feelings never felt were torture. Silk happiness was scared stiff with the withering faith, the withering wonder and awe. Going, coming, gone....so quick the maze never ended. Quick sharp corn...

My Sun by Freespirit26, literature

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My Sun

I am these lies that surround me I am not living although im alive I am the one who wants forgiveness Although this pain will still surviveI am the one that gives up trying I am still holding this over your head I am loosing all of my friendships Yet im still sleeping in my own bedI am the dark cloud following your steps I am not the cave ending with light I am the hailing wind storm that kills the sun And the darkening sky that blinds your sightI am nothing more than what you make me I am not just doing this for fun I am the blackest heart you can find I am the eclipse of your every sun

Too many by Freespirit26, literature

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Too many

So many mixed up thoughts So many images blurred So many fights to be fought Too many words slurred.So many things broken So many places lost So many times to choose Too many decisions costSo many things that work So many things that fail So many people gone away Too many times to bailSo many times derainged So many things gone wrong So many times to be weak Too many times to be strongSo many rolling eyes So many worried faces So many wonderful days Too many horrid spacesSo many times to smile So many times to try So many things to accept Too many times to crySo many people forgotten So many times to hold it in So many times to laugh Too m...

Simple Complication by Freespirit26, literature

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Simple Complication

Its a mystery of wonder Its a simple complication Its eternally not forever Its unworried contemplationIts a senceless statement Its an overtaken leap Its a forgotten memory Its yours but mine to keepIts a thrill with terror Its a dream yet your awake Its scary unlight street Its lost but yours to takeIts a feeling never felt Its a story never told Its all good yet still a sin Its a life ready to unfoldIts till time stops turning Its a way to get away Its a place to hide out Its somewhere you cant stayIts always going up Its forever falling down Its a loud screaming voice Its a voice without a soundIts hearing but being deaf Its seeing but...

Everything to me by Freespirit26, literature

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Everything to me

I dont know why i need your acceptance I cant understand why i love you so much Its like a never ending evening Freezing time with that special touchI get so mad that im not sleeping I just dont get what you do to me You challenge me to do what i want You inspire me to set my spirit freeSo many times ill be sitting here Crying because of everything im cant be But you come around and im not sad You make it clear, so i can seeI wish i could give it all back to you Ill always hold you high above the rest You can easily be my everything My love for you will pass the test

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About Freespirit26

United States
Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: Chicago/Romeoville
Favourite cartoon character: Arthur! Sebastion! All the Disney Pincesses!
Personal Quote: "What doesnt kill us, only makes us stronger"

Favourite Movies

Just Married,Back to the Future,Wicker Park,Gone In 60 seconds,Rocky,The Little Mermaid,Holes

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Eve 6

Favourite Writers

Sharon Creech, J.D. Salinger

Favourite Games

Unreal Tournament, NFSU2

Favourite Gaming Platform

Xbox, PC

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Freespirit26

Mar 19, 2007

Its been awhile

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I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waitin' to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted

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Freespirit26

Jun 3, 2005

My Worst Fear

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Last night you gave me a kiss You didn't know it, but I was awake when you did You were quiet, you were gonna let me sleep So i just laid there pretending to be You said some things you didn't know I could hear And the words "I love you" never sounded so sincereThis morning I rolled out of bed Recalling all the sweet things you said This was the day I was gonna hurt you bad Called out your name, but you didn't answer back I searched the house to find out what was wrong Like a ton of bricks, it hit me you were goneIt's gonna make it hard to tell you that I'm leaving Now that I know just how much you care You finally gave me one good reason ...

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Freespirit26

Apr 16, 2005

Fly to the moon and back

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She can't remember a time when she felt needed If love was red then she was color blind All her friends, well they've been tried for treason And crimes that were never defined She's saying, "Love is like a barren place, And reaching out for human faith It's like a journey I just don't have a map for" So baby's gonna take a dive and Push the shift to overdrive Send a signal that she's hanging All her hopes on the stars What a pleasant dream She's Saying Mama never loved her much And, Daddy never keeps in touch That's why she shies away from human affection But somewhere in a private place She packs her bags for outer space And now she's wai...