Wow. Almost 4,500 deviant notices and messages to go through.
I guess it really has been that long since I was on last.
Sorry to my few followers for not being on too
actively for the past 6-8/9 months or so. I'm not too sure,
it's been a while. There's been a lot to handle
over here, so don't hate me.
I'll try to sum this up as quickly as possible.
Started school in September to finish my high school
courses and get my diploma so I can finally move on to
more interesting and important subjects.
Failed miserably at that due to severe anxiety
and depression etc. etc.. Suffered a few
breakdowns over the past couple of months, one resulting
in a prompt visit to my doctor and a referral to a psychiatrist.
Turns out the psychologist I'd been seeing for months retired,
and no one bothered to tell me. So, every call and voicemail I left
her was a great waste of precious time. So, psych appointment
coming up towards the end of the month.
Um, what else. Acquired a new member of the family shortly
before Christmas. His name is Zeus, and he is now a 7 month old
pure German breed rottwieler. He's an ass, to say the least.
And he's been taking a lot of time, as he requires full 1 on 1 attention
at almost all times. The boyfriend and best friend moved out together.
Things were fine until best friend brought best friend's boyfriend
over to the apartment 24/7. He doesn't like me, and I don't like him.
He has quite the opinion of me for not having any idea who I really am.
So, it's been causing a lot of drama between my self and bestie.
I don't want to make this entry too long. But I know it's been a while.
On new medication, old stuff wasn't working anymore.
My new meds even have a street name. SuzieQ, snoozers, etc.
And when done with cocaine it's referred to as a Q ball.
I'm taking Seroquel, for the record. I found the above fact
quite funny. And I don't know why anyone would
do it for fun. I'm already seeing triple of everything and my
arms feel like soggy sandbags. So, to sum this up:
Shit's been mostly shitty with patches of sunny.
Going to summer school to correct my academic failure.
Need to find a job because I can't sit at home all day.
Need to sort shit out with friends and such, and
need to finish Silent Hill: Homecoming.
But, it's 4 in the morning, and I can hear
birds chirping outside the window. And I would love to
sleep before the sun decides to flood the room.
So, nite all.
And hopefully I'll be getting
some new stuff up here shortly.
I've been inspired by
Silent Hill. So, expect
gruesome twisted things.
Ami
