2024 Lookback

Whoops seemed like I skipped 2023's lookback.

To be fair, cynicism has grown strong in the past 2 years. I care about scratching my 'itch' but my spark has died out long ago. But.. I don't think things are as gloomy as last year. I've started retaking anatomy class in hopes of finally breaking away from my novice title and my speed has improved (I think?).

There are things I'd like to do in 2025 mmm.. like finishing anatomy class, picking up some xaxaxa tutorials I have sitting on my disk (same for some Rossdraws tutorial thingies).

I also need to work on my mental way of dealing with my slow progress. I mean.. I can be unhappy about my lack of progress but if I'm going to complain about that when there are people still starting up, then I'm basically doing the same thing that annoyed me when I was a beginner: People complaining about their art that looked good in my eyes.

Speaking of which: I still feel like my perception/value/taste of art is way too underdeveloped. I still think lots of stuff looks amazing when to others they look like trash (I'm not just talking about my art but other people's art as well - they get offended if I say it looks great, when I really mean it). I feel bad at that moment for hurting people with my bad taste. Not sure what I can do about it. Maybe keep my positive opinion to myself?

Oh and anime style. I wanna learn it. I feel I'm getting closer (and I keep saying this each year and then it still doesn't click). So 2025 will be full with anime studies/sketches just like the years before. One day maybe I'll learn what's basic to others. Not going to give up on this..