BethyLuv215

I am Love [with] a broken heart

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I Dream of Shipwrecks by BethyLuv215, literature

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I Dream of Shipwrecks

You were drowning And I couldn’t save you Because our cell phones didn’t work Underwater. You weren’t looking for me Because you could not see. And you couldn’t breathe So you could not scream my name, So deep Underwater. I threw myself into the waves Trying to follow you into midnight fathoms. Tiny bubbles escaped my mouth and nose As I yelled to you Underwater. The calm silence below the surface Pressed against my ears, A clamp getting tighter With every desperate stroke of my arms. Seawater replaced your name In my mouth and lungs, And my muscles were ablaze. But I dove down once more In the hopes that I could find you somewhere Underwa...

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Abuse by BethyLuv215, literature

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Abuse

1. A corrupt practice or custom Is that what it is when you walk hand in hand, looking the perfect couple because everyone is watching?2. Improper or excessive use or treatment Is that what it is when he breaks your heart for the 10th time this week, but makes it up to you with sweet kisses?3. A deceitful act Is that what it is when he tells you that you’re the only one he loves?4. Language that condemns or vilifies usually unjustly, intemperately, or angrily Is that what it is when he calls you his sweet little slut?5. Physical maltreatment Is that what it is when he apologizes for the bruises under your shirt?

Spark by BethyLuv215, literature

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Spark

Between birth and death is the odd sensation Of neither birth nor death. Instead it is the flame of a candle Jumping into existence for the flash of a moment.It is in this moment that I spent seven summers at sleep away camp Picking up pill bugs and misplacing pairs of shoes.It is in this moment that I like to believe I’ve fallen in love With every star in the sky, and even those falling from it.It is in this moment that I have felt my heart demolished And slowly rebuilt by the light of candles Whose own brilliant fires flicker in time with mine.It is in this moment that I have watched other flames dissipate And others snuffed out And othe...

Playing Pretend by BethyLuv215, literature

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Playing Pretend

I like to pretend your posts are about me. I like to pretend that you’re not the person who makes me happiest. I like to pretend that you’ve never hurt me, That I’ve finally fallen out of love with you.But sometimes I forget to pretend, And I remember how I will always be on the sidelines, despite feeling like we could make it if we only tried.I like to pretend I’m okay with all of this too. I’m good at pretending.

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About BethyLuv215

Artist // Hobbyist // Artisan Crafts

Feb 15
United States
Deviant for 14 years
She / Her

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Favourite Visual Artist

umm... Van Gogh?

Favourite Movies

Pan's Labyrinth, Labyrinth, The Parent Trap

Favourite TV Shows

Doctor Who, Torchwood, Supernatural, Merlin, Grimm, Face Off, Hannibal, Being Human, Dracula

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

PZK, Avril Lavigne, PATD, Simple Plan, Broadway and movies, SPG, Marianas Trench, All Time Low

Favourite Books

Impulse, A Wrinkle in Time, The Giver

Favourite Writers

Ellen Hopkins

Favourite Gaming Platform

Nintendo DS

Tools of the Trade

colored pencils, and a number two pencil, plus a BIG eraser! Or polymer clay and anything with texture

Other Interests

knitting, singing, drawing, photography, clay, sculpture, writing, reading, being with my friends

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BethyLuv215

Oct 3, 2017

No Longer Active

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I've tried to keep up here, but I can't. I am happy in life for the moment - getting good grades and dating a wonderful person - and do not feel the inspiration of depression. I lack the energy to make the projects which I hardly have time for, and would like to put the energy I have into pursuing professional and social goals. While I am occasionally here, additional content may not appear. Thank you for being with me through the years and thank you for understanding.

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BethyLuv215

Feb 24, 2017

Return of the Depression

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You thought I was gonna say return of the Jedi, didn't you? Nope! But I just want to say that my depression is back, in full swing, and absolutely killing me. Bad habits came back for a bit, like self harm, and then others started, like drinking too much. I have trouble getting out of bed and getting dressed. I can't eat very much. It takes me long periods of time to do simple tasks and homework assignments. I cry in the hallways and in class. I am trying my hardest to be okay, but when I spend entire days catatonic in bed, there's nothing I can think to do. I can't even muster the energy to think. But so it goes. I'm in immense amounts of...

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BethyLuv215

Feb 5, 2017

Alone for the Superbowl

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The truth is, I’m pretty darn bummed that I’m not going to a superbowl party. Sure it’s cold and I don’t want to walk, but the reason I’m not going is because I don’t know if I can handle being around people. I mean, sure I can put on a happy face, but of the people I could be with, I just don’t think I could do it. I need to be alone in a crowd of friends right now, but the crowd I could be with are people I’m not super good friends with. So I guess that means sitting alone in my apartment - which don’t get me wrong, I really do enjoy - and trying to take care of myself. It’s a hard choice, but I don’t think I have another option. My hear...