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Thanks so much Jay really means a lot that you're all thinking of me. Went to the hospital yesterday, she's breathing heavier but she's in no pain from morphine. There's calls for a priest. It could be that I'd drop off the grid for a few days or a week, but that's natural. I'm doing alright, being strong, feeling like I was sitting in the hospital room on behalf of myself, my brother John and my sister Hannah. Hannah's coming home today, and I was asked to find a photo of my nana smiling. I'm actually not too bad, unless I start thinking of my older brother, which just immediately makes me angry. So I'm trying not to. But my mum said something really helpful (she prob doesnt know just HOW helpful it was) the other day. 'It's not a question of anyone being mean just because he's on medication, because you're not being mean; he's an energy thief and always was'. To which I said 'Coming from someone with a mental illness here and now, I know that shit still gets done, its a question of getting off your ass and facing your reality'. That helped tons. Wiped away my guilt and my feeling I couldn't talk about how it makes me feel. So I feel a good bit better for that, because I'll always stand by Mum and Dad. And Dad needs me now, to be strong. So that's what I'm doing. 

Thank you for dropping this note, it definitely came at a right time! My love to all your bunch! Hope Will is enjoying college! Give Ty and Terrie smooches for me!

Love now and always, Cat