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I felt like making a journal because I feel like so much has changed in the past year and of course during the 4 years I've been on deviantArt. At the start I was just passionate about photography and liked taking photos of pretty much everything around me. Of course I was pretty young and got easily excited about the smallest of things. As years have passed I would say that I've developed a particular eye about taking photos, you know as my skills have grown, as I've gotten more equipment and as I've grown as a person.

During, I would say, the past year and a half I've lost some of my inspiration and excitement towards photography. Partly because of some of the time limitations that have come up because of my studies, which are of course very important moving forward in my life. And partly because of the pressure I've put on myself, sometimes unintentionally. Photography has grown in popularity significantly since I started, and that has the increased the pressure to be better than everybody else (which is of course a ridiculous idea/goal). And sometimes I've caught myself comparing my photos to other photographers of my age and so on, which is sometimes a good thing, but my tendency to downplay everything that I create and compare my work to other people's, is not a good combination 
So all of that has led to my current situation.

I haven't been that into photography for pretty much a year and a half. Of course I've taken photos here and there, sometimes for my studies, helped my friends out with some new profile pictures, other times I've gone to a walk with my camera and snapped some photos of the current weather situations etc, but you know not really anything with a "meaning". Despite having taken some photos I have posted pretty much none of them here, because I just haven't felt like they're good enough. Which is even from my own point of view a completely ridiculous thought! 

So I'm gonna be posting a lot of my older photos that haven't seen the light of day, in order to get some feedback and to get back to swing of things!

This journal entry has certainly been a total rambling mess without a proper conclusion and I didn't intend for this to come out sounding so serious, so please don't take anything I wrote too seriously! I just felt like writing out some of the thoughts that have circled around in my head for awhile, for myself and to the people that still for some odd reason watch me, which there are actually quite a lot  

I wish the best of luck to all of you who are going/have gone back to school and a pleasant autumn!

Wow I really haven't made a journal in ages!

I'm now on my last semester on 9th grade and in a few weeks I'll be applying for colleges, well that's at least what I'd call them, it's pretty hard to come up with a name for the schools I'll be applying to 'cause our education system is so different from the American one.
I essentially have 2 options, I can either apply for a college/high school where I'd be studying theoretical subjects like maths, English, chemistry etc. or to a school were I can study for a profession/career, where I'd study practical subjects relating to the profession I want to pursue.
I pretty much still have my options open, I haven't decided and I'm having trouble with it.

So that's basically one reason why I haven't uploaded that much photographs or been so active.
I need to study extra hard and get good grades because that's what will ensure I get into a school I want to go to.

But in other news:
OMG!!!! (an expression I never use)
I reached 10,000 pageviews and I also have almost 300 watchers which is absolutely crazy!
Coming this March I have been a deviant for 3 years and I never in a thousand years thought this would happen!
It's crazy to think that I made my account when I was 13 and now I'm 16, so much has changed during that time.

I want to thank everyone that has supported me during these years and it never ceases to surprise me when someone favorites or comments my work!

And you can still find more of my work in my blog intoquietviolence.blogspot.fi/ which I update at least twice a month (: