Artist-in-Despair

I can't believe that my last journal where i mentioned that i was depressed was from 5 months ago! and now i feel 10 time worse! I have no idea what happened every thing gets to be more worse than before, i can't get into details at the moment. but if anyone felt that shit for so long please give me some advice before i do something i might regret about! i don't want to ask people who are close to me because everyone will act like they care but deep inside i know that they don't i know that it's not like  i'm being  anonymous actually here on DA there are lots of people who know me but not in person so i think it's better to post this here...

I don't write journals often, but i just feel completely depressed and  boredom and failure are taking over my life, it's been  2 months and each day and i mean literally each day i wake up i feel like shit and when i go to bed i feel worse and then it starts all over again the next day, i hope that i could stop feeling like that or just only for one day!

Hey all, I would like anyone who visits my profile to take some time and visit one of my talented friends new paintings!! :w00t!: I'm sure that you will love her new work :gallery: :iconimanamy: