All-Poems-Welcome

Why am I this way? Tears stream down as I walk away How do I keep getting it so wrong? I'm getting so tired of being strong I keep trying to fix the bits that are broken To stop doing anything just to be chosen Still I push away anyone who actually cares Rather live off of crumbs and stolen stares So addicted to the highs and lows The security of it all nobody knows Only the ones who've been where you've been The ones who don't actually want to be seen It's so much safer to admire it all from afar Than to let someone truly know who you are And that is why my dearest friend This vicious cycle will have no end We'll keep going around, me and you Be the best of friends while we do Might even call it love, between us two Until we're ready to experience something new So I promise to hold your hand till then We got so close didn't we, friend?

I wish I could find the words to make it right I wish I could just squeeze you so tight That all of the hurt would fall like rain I would relieve you of all your pain I know I can't make any of it go away I know that you will find your own way But I can carry some of the weight while you do I can hold space for you to be you I want to be someone you can lean on I want to be there for you till it's all gone The heavy feelings in your chest The thoughts that won't let you rest I'll sit with you in silence with stars in our eyes I'll sit with you in the dark till we see the sunrise

I see a familiar pain in your eyes One that your smile usually hides I hear the deep hurt in your voice Feeling like you have no other choice I know how your heart is breaking Holding on to the pieces they keep taking I remember how hope begs you to stay But love shouldn't feel this way I want to reach out and hold your hand Be there for you however I can I'd like to stroke your hair and pull you close Show I understand better than most I'll be gentle, I'll be kind Listen to what's on you heavy mind Do you feel how I do when we touch? For me, you could never be too much

You sculpt my soul, To be just like your own, I know your palmistry better, Than my own is known, You’re supervising each step, To keep my life in line, So that with every move, I meet your footprints with mine, On my path you are steering, With reins taut and tight, The wrong directions to me, To you are the right, Perhaps you are successful, But you are not me, I would rather fail if myself, Is who I get to be, Wrapped around your finger, By blood and by gene, Looking back now, You are all I’ve ever been, And even if you did mould me, Smooth my uneven way, Still I will have not become you, But just your clay.

Presence of her past, Just won’t go away, It follows close at her heels, Into every new day, Tainting dawn in remembrance, Of dusk from before, Haunted by all those things, Not here anymore, She daydreams of thinking, With a mind at peace, Dodges sleep to the nightmares, Failing to cease, Hardly gone ghostly visions, Sneak up from behind, How might she forget, Memories circling her mind, Running from the shadow, Fixed to her feet, Long since silenced voices, The echoes repeat, For a difference is needed, In all that is the same, Still looking forward to the day, She never looks back again.

I think I was you once but you don't remember then you were your former self absorbed but traces of your former thoughts will sometimes fly across imagination very incomplete your memories appear in dreams sometimes I'm writing a history of a lost people imagined from some fragments of your lost ideas a strange story impossible to forget as long as I remember that I was once a stranger

Fast past a stop light Sitting in the back of a car I caught her eyes for a moment She was untangling her headphones When she looked at me Waiting for something I looked at her from the side window Looking at me from the bus station bench I came and went She sat and watched Only tangled gazes In the evening remain

I don't wanna lose you I know you've got to go But it still hurts Losing someone you love Seeing them flash before your eyes The old version of them is gone You'll never get it back There time is near And I don't wanna lose you I have so many memories I will cherriesh them forever And keep them near my heart Cause I dont wanna lose you I'll keep the memories So I can always have you near Near to my heart

It snuk up on me, took me by surprise Wrapped it's cold hands around me, just like old times I can feel it take root, I can feel it spreading I feel the all too familiar dreading When there's no difference having my eyes open or not The light inside me is all that I got Even that is fading too fast I don't think I have the will to last It makes me so heavy, I just keep sinking I don't know how to stop thinking Continuously drowning, but I won't die So much false hope, every breath is a lie I just want to close my eyes, maybe sleep for a while Stop fighting, let go and rest with a smile After all, what more is there to see? I'm still the same, yet no longer me I welcome it, let it swallow me whole Let its embrace make me feel less alone