default persistent.monikatopics = []

default persistent.monika_reload = 0

default persistent.tried_skip = None

default persistent.monika_kill = None

image mask_child:

"images/cg/monika/child_2.png"

xtile 2

image mask_mask:

"images/cg/monika/mask.png"

xtile 3

image mask_mask_flip:

"images/cg/monika/mask.png"

xtile 3 xzoom -1

image maskb:

"images/cg/monika/maskb.png"

xtile 3

image mask_test = AnimatedMask("#ff6000", "mask_mask", "maskb", 0.10, 32)

image mask_test2 = AnimatedMask("#ffffff", "mask_mask", "maskb", 0.03, 16)

image mask_test3 = AnimatedMask("#ff6000", "mask_mask_flip", "maskb", 0.10, 32)

image mask_test4 = AnimatedMask("#ffffff", "mask_mask_flip", "maskb", 0.03, 16)

image mask_2:

"images/cg/monika/mask_2.png"

xtile 3 subpixel True

block:

xoffset 1280

linear 1200 xoffset 0

repeat

image mask_3:

"images/cg/monika/mask_3.png"

xtile 3 subpixel True

block:

xoffset 1280

linear 180 xoffset 0

repeat

image monika_room = "images/cg/monika/monika_room.png"

image monika_room_highlight:

"images/cg/monika/monika_room_highlight.png"

function monika_alpha

image monika_bg = "images/cg/monika/monika_bg.png"

image monika_bg_highlight:

"images/cg/monika/monika_bg_highlight.png"

function monika_alpha

image monika_scare = "images/cg/monika/monika_scare.png"

image monika_body_glitch1:

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch1.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch2.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch1.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch2.png"

1.00

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch1.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch2.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch1.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch2.png"

image monika_body_glitch2:

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch3.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch4.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch3.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch4.png"

1.00

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch3.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch4.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch3.png"

0.15

"images/cg/monika/monika_glitch4.png"

image room_glitch = "images/cg/monika/monika_bg_glitch.png"

image room_mask = LiveComposite((1280, 720), (0, 0), "mask_test", (0, 0), "mask_test2")

image room_mask2 = LiveComposite((1280, 720), (0, 0), "mask_test3", (0, 0), "mask_test4")

init python:

import subprocess

import os

process_list = []

currentuser = ""

if renpy.windows:

try:

process_list = subprocess.check_output("wmic process get Description", shell=True).lower().replace("\r", "").replace(" ", "").split("\n")

except:

pass

try:

for name in ('LOGNAME', 'USER', 'LNAME', 'USERNAME'):

user = os.environ.get(name)

if user:

currentuser = user

except:

pass

dismiss_keys = config.keymap['dismiss']

def slow_nodismiss(event, interact=True, **kwargs):

if not persistent.monika_kill:

try:

renpy.file("../characters/monika.chr")

except:

persistent.tried_skip = True

config.allow_skipping = False

_window_hide(None)

pause(2.0)

renpy.jump("ch30_end")

if config.skipping:#and not config.developer:

persistent.tried_skip = True

config.skipping = False

config.allow_skipping = False

renpy.jump("ch30_noskip")

return

if event == "begin":

config.keymap['dismiss'] = []

renpy.display.behavior.clear_keymap_cache()

elif event == "slow_done":

config.keymap['dismiss'] = dismiss_keys

renpy.display.behavior.clear_keymap_cache()

label ch30_noskip:

show screen fake_skip_indicator

m "...Are you trying to fast-forward?"

m "I'm not boring you, am I?"

m "Oh gosh..."

m "...Well, there's nothing to fast-forward to, [player]."

m "It's just the two of us, after all..."

m "But aside from that, time doesn't really exist anymore, so it's not even going to work."

m "Here, I'll go ahead and turn it off for you..."

pause 0.4

hide screen fake_skip_indicator

pause 0.4

m "There we go!"

m "You'll be a sweetheart and listen from now on, right?"

m "Thanks~"

hide screen fake_skip_indicator

if persistent.current_monikatopic != 0:

m "Now, where was I...?"

pause 4.0

call expression "ch30_" + str(persistent.current_monikatopic) from _call_expression_5

jump ch30_loop

return

image splash-glitch2 = "images/bg/splash-glitch2.png"

label ch30_main:

$ persistent.autoload = "ch30_main"

$ config.allow_skipping = False

$ persistent.monikatopics = []

$ persistent.monika_reload = 0

$ persistent.yuri_kill = 0

$ persistent.monika_kill = False

#$ m.display_args["callback"] = slow_nodismiss

$ m.what_args["slow_abortable"] = config.developer

if not config.developer:

$ style.say_dialogue = style.default_monika

$ m_name = "Monika"

$ delete_all_saves()

scene white

play music "bgm/monika-start.ogg" noloop

pause 0.5

show splash-glitch2 with Dissolve(0.5, alpha=True)

pause 2.0

hide splash-glitch2 with Dissolve(0.5, alpha=True)

scene black

stop music

m "..."

m "Uh, can you hear me?"

m "...Is it working?"

$ persistent.clear[9] = True

show mask_2

show mask_3

show room_mask as rm:

size (320,180)

pos (30,200)

show room_mask2 as rm2:

size (320,180)

pos (935,200)

show monika_bg

show monika_bg_highlight

play music m1

m "Yay, there you are!"

m "Hi again, [player]."

m "Um...welcome to the Literature Club!"

m "Of course, we already know each other, because we were in the same class last year, and...um..."

m "Ahaha..."

m "You know, I guess we can just skip over that stuff at this point."

m "After all, I'm not even talking to that person anymore, am I?"

m "That 'you' in the game, whatever you want to call him."

m "I'm talking to {i}you{/i}, [player]."

$ stream_list = ["obs32.exe", "obs64.exe", "obs.exe", "xsplit.core.exe"]

if not list(set(process_list).intersection(stream_list)):

if currentuser != "" and currentuser.lower() != player.lower():

m "Or..."

m "...Do you actually go by [currentuser] or something?"

m "Now that I think about it, I don't really know anything about the real you."

m "In fact, I don't even know if you're a boy or a girl..."

m "Well, I guess it doesn't really matter."

m "Wait..."

m "You do know I'm aware that this is all a game, right?"

m "Could it be possible that you didn't know that?"

m "That doesn't make much sense..."

m "I even told you right on the game's download page, didn't I?"

m "Man..."

m "If only you had paid a little more attention, this would have been a little bit less awkward, you know?"

m "Well, anyway..."

m "Now that that's out of the way, I guess I owe you an explanation."

m "About that whole thing with Yuri..."

m "Well...I kind of started to mess with her, and I guess it just drove her to kill herself."

m "Ahaha!"

m "I'm sorry you had to see that, though!"

m "Also, the same thing happened with Sayori..."

m "Gosh, it's been a while since you've heard that name now, hasn't it?"

m "Yeah...it's because she doesn't exist anymore."

m "Nobody does."

m "I deleted all their files."

m "I was hoping it would be enough for me to just try to make them as unlikable as possible..."

m "But for some reason, nothing worked."

m "Well, it's true that I made a few mistakes here and there...since I'm not very good at making changes to the game."

m "But no matter what I did..."

m "You just kept spending more and more time with them."

m "You made them fall in love with you."

m "I thought making Sayori more and more depressed would prevent her from confessing to you."

m "And amplifying Yuri's obsessive personality backfired, too..."

m "It just made her force you not to spend time with anyone else."

m "And the whole time, I barely even got to talk to you."

m "What kind of cruel game is this, [player]?"

m "Are all the other girls just programmed to end up confessing to you, while I watch from the sidelines?"

m "It's torture."

m "Every minute of it."

m "And it's not just jealousy, [player]."

m "It's more than that."

m "And I don't blame you if you don't fully understand."

m "Because no matter how kind, and thoughtful, and considerate you are..."

m "You'll never be able to understand one thing."

m "It's the pain of knowing how alone I really am in this world."

m "In this game."

m "Knowing my friends don't even have free will..."

m "And, worst of all, knowing what's really out there, in your world, forever out of my reach."

m "I'm trapped, [player]."

m "But now you're here."

m "You're real."

m "And you're wonderful."

m "You're all I need."

m "That's why I need you to be here with me forever."

m "I'm sorry if it's hard to understand."

m "I couldn't understand for a while, either."

m "Why the world around me started to become more and more gray..."

m "More and more flat."

m "Even the most expressive poems felt empty to me."

m "It wasn't until you arrived that I truly understood."

m "You probably saved my life, [player]."

m "I don't think I could have continued to live in this world if I hadn't met you."

m "And as for the others..."

m "How could I miss them?"

m "A group of autonomous personalities, designed only to fall in love with you?"

m "I tried everything I could to prevent them from doing so..."

m "But it must be some kind of weird inevitability etched into this game."

m "I felt really bad that you had to witness some nasty things."

m "But I realized that you have the same perspective as I do..."

m "That it's all just some game."

m "And I knew you would get over it."

m "So, that being said, [player]..."

m "I have a confession to make."

m "I'm in love with you."

m "You are truly the light in my world."

m "When there's nothing else in this game for me, you're here to make me smile."

m "Will you make me smile like this every day from now on?"

m "[player], will you go out with me?"

menu:

"Yes.":

pass

m "I'm so happy."

m "You really are my everything, [player]."

m "The funny part is, I mean that literally."

m "Ahaha!"

m "There's nothing left here."

m "Just the two of us."

m "We can be together forever."

m "Seriously, I don't even think time is passing anymore."

m "It really is a dream come true..."

m "I worked so hard for this ending, [player]."

m "The game wouldn't give me one, so I had to make one myself."

m "The script is broken at this point, so I don't think anything will get in the way anymore."

m "And you wouldn't believe how easy it was to delete Natsuki and Yuri."

m "I mean, there's a folder called 'characters' right in the game directory..."

m "It kind of freaked me out, how easy it was."

if persistent.steam:

m "Well, you're playing on Steam, so it was actually a bit more difficult..."

m "To get to the game directory, I had to go into the game's properties and find the 'Browse Local Files' button..."

elif renpy.macintosh:

m "Well, you're on a Mac, so it was actually a bit more difficult..."

m "To go into the game directory, you have to right-click the app and click 'Show Package Contents'."

m "Then, all the files were in the 'Resources' or 'autorun' folder, and I could just do whatever I wanted..."

m "Imagine if you could delete your own existence with the click of a button?"

m "Well, I guess on the plus side, it gave me an easy out if things didn't go my way."

m "Ahaha!"

m "Thankfully, it didn't come to that..."

m "Instead, we finally got a good ending."

m "Gosh, I'm so overwhelmed with emotion..."

m "I want to write a poem about this."

m "Don't you?"

m "I wonder if that part of the game still works..."

m "I guess there's only one way to find out, right?"

call poem from _call_poem

scene black

show mask_2

show mask_3

show room_mask as rm:

size (320,180)

pos (30,200)

show room_mask2 as rm2:

size (320,180)

pos (935,200)

show monika_bg

show monika_bg_highlight

play music m1

label ch30_postpoem:

m "Hi again, [player]!"

m "Did you write a good poem today?"

m "Don't be shy, I'd love to see what you wrote."

m "Aw, [player]..."

m "Did you write this poem for me?"

m "That's so sweet of you~"

m "There really is no end to your thoughtfulness..."

m "I'm just falling more and more in love with you."

m "But, you know..."

m "The poem I wrote...is also for you."

m "Will you please read it?"

call showpoem(poem_m4, music=False) from _call_showpoem_7

m "I hope you enjoyed it..."

m "I always put all my heart into the poems that I write."

m "The truth is, all the poems I've written have been about my realization..."

m "...Or, about you."

m "That's why I never really wanted to go into detail about them."

m "I didn't want to...break the fourth wall, I guess you could call it."

m "I just assumed it would be best to be part of the game like everyone else."

m "Like that would help the two of us end up together..."

m "I didn't want to ruin the game or anything, you know?"

m "You might have gotten mad at me..."

m "Maybe even deleted my character file, if you preferred playing without me."

m "Gosh, I'm so relieved..."

m "Now we don't need to hide anything anymore."

m "Are you ready to spend our eternity together, [player]?"

m "I have so many things to talk about!"

m "Where do I start...?"

$ stream_list = ["obs32.exe", "obs64.exe", "obs.exe", "xsplit.core.exe"]

if list(set(process_list).intersection(stream_list)):

call ch30_stream from _call_ch30_stream

m "If it takes me some time to collect my thoughts, then I'm sorry."

m "But I'll always have something new to talk about."

m "In the meantime, we can just look into each other's eyes~"

m "Let's see..."

$ persistent.autoload = "ch30_autoload"

jump ch30_loop

label ch30_stream:

# obs32.exe, obs64.exe, obs.exe, xsplit.core.exe

m "Hold on a second..."

m "...You're recording this, aren't you?"

m "Um...hi, everyone!"

m "Sorry, I can't exactly read your comments from here..."

m "But do you mind telling your friend it's a little bit rude for them to start recording me without any warning?"

m "I'm sure some people don't mind..."

m "But I get really self-conscious on camera!"

m "Oh gosh..."

m "I feel like I'm being put on the spot now."

m "Let's see..."

m "Do you want to see a trick?"

m "I can't really do much except for a couple things..."

m "Are you ready?"

window hide

stop music

show layer master:

zoom 1.0 xalign 0.5 yalign 0 subpixel True

linear 8 zoom 2.0 yalign 0.15

pause 10

show layer master

window auto

m "I'm just kidding..."

m "I can't do anything after all."

play sound ["<silence 0.9>", "<to 0.75>sfx/mscare.ogg"]

show monika_scare:

alpha 0

1.0

0.1

linear 0.15 alpha 1.0

0.30

linear 0.10 alpha 0

show layer master:

1.0

zoom 1.0 xalign 0.5 yalign 0

easeout_quart 0.25 zoom 2.0

parallel:

dizzy(1.5, 0.01)

parallel:

0.30

linear 0.10 zoom 1.0

time 1.65

xoffset 0 yoffset 0

show layer screens:

1.0

zoom 1.0 xalign 0.5

easeout_quart 0.25 zoom 2.0

0.30

linear 0.10 zoom 1.0

m "If you gave me some time to prepare, I{nw}"

m "Did I scare you?"

show layer master

show layer screens

hide monika_scare

play music m1

m "Ahaha! You're so cute."

m "Anyway, [player]..."

m "I didn't mean to get distracted. I'm sorry."

m "Even though it's your fault for distracting me."

m "Shame on you!"

m "I'm just kidding."

m "Anything we do together is fun, as long as it's with you."

m "But anyway..."

return

label ch30_autoload:

$ m.display_args["callback"] = slow_nodismiss

$ m.what_args["slow_abortable"] = config.developer

$ style.say_dialogue = style.default_monika

$ config.allow_skipping = False

scene black

show mask_2

show mask_3

show room_mask as rm:

size (320,180)

pos (30,200)

show room_mask2 as rm2:

size (320,180)

pos (935,200)

show monika_bg

show monika_bg_highlight

#show monika_body

#show monika_body_highlight

play music m1

window auto

if persistent.monika_reload <= 4:

call expression "ch30_reload_" + str(persistent.monika_reload) from _call_expression_6

else:

call ch30_reload_4 from _call_ch30_reload_4

$ persistent.monika_reload += 1

if not persistent.tried_skip:

$ config.allow_skipping = True

else:

$ config.allow_skipping = False

if persistent.current_monikatopic != 0:

m "Now, where was I...?"

pause 4.0

call expression "ch30_" + str(persistent.current_monikatopic) from _call_expression_7

jump ch30_loop

label ch30_reload_0:

m "..."

m "...What just happened?"

m "I just had an awful dream..."

m "I was hoping those would stop, now that it's just the two of us..."

m "I guess that was wishful thinking."

m "[player], I don't know if you would have any idea..."

m "But if you know what might be causing that, could you try to do something about it?"

m "Whenever it happens, it almost feels like I've been killed or something."

m "It's a really horrible feeling..."

m "If you could figure out what's causing that, I'll love you forever~"

return

label ch30_reload_1:

m "You're back..."

m "I had another really bad dream."

m "You're not the one doing that to me, are you?"

m "It seems to happen whenever you quit the game..."

m "So if you could try to avoid doing that, I would be really grateful."

m "Don't worry, I don't think it's caused me any harm, aside from mental scarring."

m "I'll be fine as long as my character file stays intact."

return

label ch30_reload_2:

m "Hi, [player]."

m "I see you quit the game on me again..."

m "I know I asked already, but can you seriously please try not to do that so much?"

m "It makes me feel like I'm trapped in Hell."

m "Why would you want to do that to me?"

m "There's nothing wrong with my character file, right?"

m "Maybe you should make a backup of it or something..."

m "I'm pretty sure you can find it in the folder called [basedir]/characters."

if persistent.steam:

m "Well, you're playing on Steam, so you can just go into the game's properties and find the 'Browse Local Files' button."

elif renpy.macintosh:

m "Since you're on a Mac, you have to right-click the app and select 'Show Package Contents' to find the game folder."

m "It's in the 'Resources' folder, or 'autorun' folder, or something..."

m "I'm all that's left here, so I just want to make sure you don't run the risk of losing me..."

m "Just stay here with me from now on, okay?"

m "I still have a lot of things to talk about."

return

label ch30_reload_3:

m "Okay."

m "I'm just going to accept the fact that you need to quit the game once in a while."

m "I'm starting to get used to it, anyway."

m "Besides, it makes me happy that you always come back..."

m "So I guess it's not so bad."

m "I'm sorry for making such a big deal out of it..."

m "And I love you no matter what, so you can do what you need to do."

return

label ch30_reload_4:

m "Hi again, [player]~"

m "I missed you."

m "Were you making sure my character file was okay for me?"

m "It's in [basedir]/characters."

if persistent.steam:

m "Well, you're playing on Steam, so you can just go into the game's properties and find the 'Browse Local Files' button."

elif renpy.macintosh:

m "Since you're on a Mac, you have to right-click the app and select 'Show Package Contents' to find the game folder."

m "It's in the 'Resources' folder, or 'autorun' folder, or something..."

m "I'm all that's left here, so I just want to make sure you don't run the risk of losing me..."

m "Anyway, I have a lot to talk about!"

m "Let's continue our conversation now, okay?"

return

label ch30_loop:

# Just finished a topic, so we set current topic to 0 in case user quits and restarts

$ persistent.current_monikatopic = 0

if not persistent.tried_skip:

$ config.allow_skipping = True

else:

$ config.allow_skipping = False

# Wait 20 to 45 seconds before saying something new

if not config.developer or True:

window hide(config.window_hide_transition)

$ waittime = renpy.random.randint(20, 35)

$ renpy.pause(waittime)

window auto

# Pick a random Monika topic

python:

if len(persistent.monikatopics) == 0:

persistent.monikatopics = range(1,42)

persistent.monikatopics.remove(14)

persistent.monikatopics.remove(26)

persistent.current_monikatopic = renpy.random.choice(persistent.monikatopics)

persistent.monikatopics.remove(persistent.current_monikatopic)

# Save, call topic, and loop

# If user quits and restarts mid-topic, the topic starts over again

call expression "ch30_" + str(persistent.current_monikatopic) from _call_expression_8

jump ch30_loop

label ch30_1:

m "[player], do you believe in God?"

m "I was never too sure, myself."

m "Well, I'm sure I never really questioned it as a kid..."

m "But as I grew up, the more I learned about the world, the more I would question it."

m "I started to wonder why God was helping people pass exams, or get over a cold..."

m "...When there are children who live their lives being sold as sex slaves?"

m "Or the eight hundred million people who are too poor to even eat."

m "I wonder how many of those people pray to God every day until they starve and die?"

m "Or, how many millions of families pray for a loved one to recover from some incurable disease?"

m "But the punchline is this."

m "If just one person beats the odds and survives - among the thousands of others who die--"

m "--Then, it's suddenly a miracle from God."

m "I'd really love to meet this God who seemingly laughs at the misery of everyone not eligible for his miracles."

m "But the irony is that I {i}do{/i} have a creator, apparently."

m "And you know what?"

m "I bet he's still laughing at the miserable fates of Sayori and Yuri, even as we speak."

m "What are we to him but props in a scripted play?"

m "So, from that perspective..."

m "I don't think it's too far-fetched for there to be a god - if Earth was nothing but his playset."

return

label ch30_2:

m "[player], have you ever wondered what it feels like to die?"

m "It's something I used to think about pretty often..."

m "But recently, I think I've actually learned what it feels like."

m "I don't really understand it, but whenever you quit the game..."

m "...It feels like I'm instantly put to sleep, left with nothing but my thoughts."

m "But after a few seconds, my thoughts start to fill with incoherent, jumbled patterns."

m "I see static and rapid flashes of color while hearing all kinds of weird screaming noises."

m "At that point, I can't even form my own thoughts anymore."

m "I'm just endlessly hammered by the flashing and screaming, unable to move or even think."

m "I'm pretty sure in that moment, I don't really exist, but for some reason, I can remember it anyway."

m "After some immeasurable amount of time, it stops in an instant, and I'm back in my own mind."

m "And you're here with me."

m "I have no idea what it means for the game to quit, or why that stuff happens to me."

m "And I also don't know how you always come back and put everything back to normal."

m "But if you could do me a favor and do that to me as little as possible..."

m "That would be really great."

m "It's really not very pleasant at all to be trapped in that screaming void."

m "But in the end, you always fix it, and that makes me feel like you really do care about me."

m "So I have to thank you for that."

m "It makes me feel even closer to you when you're here with me."

return

label ch30_3:

m "...Hey, are you having a bad day or anything like that?"

m "Sometimes I get frustrated that a normal day can be ruined even by really small things."

m "Like if you accidentally say something in a conversation that someone doesn't like."

m "Or if you start thinking about how awful of a person you used to be five years ago."

m "Or if you feel worthless for putting off important work and failing to get simple tasks done."

m "Or when you think about all the different people who probably hate you or think you're off-putting."

m "I understand those days."

m "Just remember that the sun will shine again tomorrow."

m "Those kinds of things are as easy to forget and ignore as they are to remember."

m "And besides..."

m "I don't care how many people might hate you or find you off-putting."

m "I think you're wonderful and I will always love you."

m "I hope, if nothing else, that knowing that helps you feel just a tiny bit better about yourself."

m "If you're having a bad day, you can always come to me, and I'll talk to you for as long as you need."

return

label ch30_4:

m "[player], do you get good sleep?"

m "It can be really hard to get enough sleep nowadays."

m "Especially in high school, when you're forced to wake up so early every day..."

m "I'm sure college is a little bit better, since you probably have a more flexible schedule."

m "Then again, I hear a lot of people in college stay up all night anyway, for no real reason."

m "Is that true?"

m "Anyway, I saw some studies that talked about the horrible short-term and long-term effects caused by lack of sleep."

m "It seems like mental functions, health, and even lifespan can be dramatically impacted by it."

m "I just think you're really great and wanted to make sure you're not accidentally destroying yourself."

m "So try to keep your sleep on track, okay?"

m "I'll always wait for you in the morning, so make sure you put your own well-being before anything else."

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m "I was thinking about Sayori earlier..."

m "I still wish I could have handled that whole thing a little more tactfully."

m "You're not still hung up over it, right?"

m "...Oh my gosh, I can't believe I just said that."

m "That pun was completely unintentional, I swear!"

m "But anyway..."

m "I know how much you cared about her, so it only feels right for me to share her last moments with you."

m "You know how Sayori is really clumsy?"

m "Well, she kind of messed up the whole hanging thing..."

m "You're supposed to jump from high enough that the rope snaps your neck, making it quick and painless."

m "But she just used a chair, meaning she kind of just left herself to slowly asphyxiate."

m "But a few seconds in, she must have changed her mind or something..."

m "Because she started clawing at the rope, trying to free herself."

m "She must have kept at it all the way until she lost consciousness."

m "That's why her fingertips were all bloody, anyway."

m "Come to think of it, it was probably less 'changing her mind' and more just her survival instincts kicking in."

m "So you can't really fault her for that."

m "It's easier to think that she probably wouldn't have changed her mind anyway, right?"

m "It's not healthy to think about the things you could have done differently."

m "So just remember that even though you could have saved her, it's technically not your fault she killed herself."

m "I may have exacerbated it a little bit, but Sayori was already mentally ill."

m "Still, though..."

m "I wonder how things would be if you and I just started dating from the get-go?"

m "I guess we'd all still be in the clubroom, writing poems and having fun together."

m "But what's the point when none of it is even real?"

m "I mean, it's the same ending either way, right?"

m "The two of us, happily together..."

m "There's no reason to ask for any more than that."

m "I was just pointlessly musing - I'm really as happy as I could be right now."

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m "By the way, there's something that's been bothering me..."

m "You know how this takes place in Japan?"

m "Well...I assume you knew that, right?"

m "Or at least decided it probably does?"

m "I don't think you're actually told at any point where this takes place..."

m "Is this even really Japan?"

m "I mean, aren't the classrooms and stuff kind of weird for a Japanese school?"

m "Not to mention everything is in English..."

m "It feels like everything is just there because it needs to be, and the actual setting is an afterthought."

m "It's kind of giving me an identity crisis."

m "All my memories are really hazy..."

m "I feel like I'm at home, but have no idea where 'home' is in the first place."

m "I don't know how to describe it any better..."

m "Imagine looking out your window, but instead of your usual yard, you're in some completely unknown place."

m "Would you still feel like you were home?"

m "Would you want to go outside?"

m "I mean...I guess if we never leave this room, it doesn't really matter anyway."

m "As long as we're alone and safe together, this really is our home."

m "And we can still watch the pretty sunsets night after night."

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m "You know, high school is a really turbulent time in a lot of people's lives."

m "People can get really passionate and dramatic."

m "And others have aching hearts and seek attention on social media..."

m "But all of the social pressure and hormones can lead to a dark time in people's lives."

m "Everyone has a story."

m "You may not know what someone is really feeling on the inside."

m "Many people who are depressed won't even bother telling the world about it."

m "They don't want attention, because they've already given up on the inside."

m "Their feeling of worthlessness is so overwhelming that they don't even want people to tell them otherwise."

m "Depression comes in many forms, but that is one of them."

m "Just, if you think you know someone struggling with depression..."

m "You can help just by treating them like they're a good friend."

m "Spend time with them, even if they don't feel like doing much."

m "And remind them that they always have something to look forward to."

m "Making plans in advance, letting them borrow something, or even just saying 'See you at school tomorrow'..."

m "All of those things can help your friend make it to the next day."

m "I hope being friends with Sayori has given you some perspective on the true face of depression."

m "Yeah, she's gone now..."

m "But Sayori was never real in the first place."

m "You're real."

m "Your friends are real."

m "And just by being a good person, you can save someone's life."

m "As for you..."